Finally !!!

Anyone who knew me well knew the one thing i wanted most in life was to be a mom, to have a child of my own and to love that child unconditionally! Derek and i had been married for about a year and a half when we decided we would start trying to have a baby. It was something i was realistic about and knew that it could happen the 1st try or be years. So a year had gone by and i wasn't too shook up yet.

One day, when I was at my parents house, my mom causally said " hey there is an article in my magazine that i think you should look at. Not that i am saying you have this but i think you should look at it and see what you think".The title was "PCOS" ...ok? Underneath the title were a list of all the possible symptoms. Below it said YOU MAY NOT HAVE ALL SYMPTOMS but if you have at least 5 of these symptoms, talk to your Dr. So i go through the symptoms again and in my head " Check ...Check ... Check Check ...... Check....OMG THERE IS MY 5 !!!" My mom, being the great mom she is, jumped in and said, "o it's just something maybe next time your in to see Mary , maybe i would bring up. Nothing to get too concerned about. " I finished reading the article and as mom and I were discussing all of the symptoms i did have, i thought i would fill her in on the one she didn't know about. One of the symptoms was not able to get pregnant and or miscarry easily. I could feel me starting to get teary eyed when thinking of how to tell mom. Me,being so good with words ( LOL), just blurted out " There is one more symptom you don't know about. I have been off the pill for a year and a half now ! " I think mom knew I was concerned about this by now and we sat and talked for a while.

It didn't take me but Monday morning to call and get an appointment. I remember going online, printing off info reading and rereading as much as i could about it. It was time for my Dr.'s appointment, I brought all my sheets i had printed off to show my Dr. I stated to Mary " I am not normally one who comes in and try to diagnose myself, but I have something i want to go through with you" As soon as i started in with the info i had and told her my symptoms, she smiled a not so happy smile and started nodding at me. We sat and discussed what i need to do and meds i needed to take. And before i left, She came and gave me a hug and said "No need to worry yet Jackie, you can still get pregnant. Don't worry quite yet.  "

I left the office went straight to GNC got some of my meds, then went to Walgreens and got my prescriptions. Went home read the info on the pills i was to take. There was one med in particular that the side effect was becoming nauseous. The weeks to follow,I was not taking the news very well. I cried a lot. The thought of me not being able to enjoy being pregnant and have a child of my own just made me sick. I prayed a lot and was finally came to that if this is what God has planned for me, there is nothing i can do about it.

It was Easter by now and we always went to Early rise service. During the service I had to get up and leave !  I didn't feel good most of the day and thought it was just my pills kicking in. This continued for another week when something else started. My breasts started hurting. I remember i had the day off and Derek was working. I ran to the store, got a pregnancy test .. ok maybe 2 of them :-) and went straight home. Both came back positive! I was hysterical !!But i had to calm down as Derek was coming home. And had to think of how i was going to tell him. Unfortunately i didn't come up with anything cool. He walked in and i was CHEESING !! Grinning ear to ear. SO i had to tell him right away. I told him there was something for him in the bathroom. I left the pregnancy test out so he could see them. He turned around and had this smirk on his face.We were so excited to finally be pregnant.

Heck i find myself smiling as i sit here writing about it. Come to find out, i was pregnant when i went to the Dr and talked about my PCOS in the 1st place. Yes, I still had/have PCOS but i was blessed to be able to still get pregnant.

Yes, there are moments where my children my get on my nerves, but i wouldn't trade them for all the PEACE in my world. I am very blessed to have two beautiful, healthy kids that bring all the joy to my life.  I will never take that for granted .. EVER !